when things fall apart, sometimes all you can do is cry...

well...

ballet trip=fail.
not everything i wanted it to be.
at least the girls were fun to be around.
just the performance was nothing knowing what it could have been.
my mother might take me to a local performance because
she feels bad. maybe sleeping beauty or belaro. i'm a little excited.

current happenings.
i work. i work. i work. ALL the bloody time.
some days i want to stop working all together.
other days i don't even mind it.

i rarely sleep. i'm like a zombie sometimes.

i need more time to dance, now that i can go back.

monroe injured his leg but it doesn't seem too serious
i'm really hoping that it's just a muscle tear, only time will tell.

started my application for school. i just have to get some transcript
information before i can submit it.

i still want to quit life and go snowboarding everyday. hopefully i can
go again soon.

that's it. nothing too exciting happening but things are happening.

it's that time again...

thursday i am leaving again for a few days. 

where you wonder?

i'm off to sunny califorina to see the ballet again. 

i cannot wait!

it's going to be amazing. 

last year was perfect but this year it's going to be 

so much better. 

better seats. 

better weather. 

and i haven't seen an actual ballet since august. 

that's disgraceful. 

if you can't tell i'm stoked. 

be back in few

farewell slc.

Influences

so my buddy robert and his lovely sister marissa are currently traveling in Australia, the lucky dogs. on their awesome blog see here they both made a list of 100 hundred people that have influenced their lives. after reading their posts i was shocked to realize that i have never thought how much others have shaped me into who i am. whether it was intentional or with out even meaning to so many people have molded me into the person i see in the mirror. i have created my own list of one hundred people; these people are the ones who have guided, helped, even hurt me. they may not even know the affect that they have had one me. some of these people are dead, some i don't EVER want to speak to again, some i cannot stand, but they are all important. as i was writing down names i was amazed at some of the names that came to my head. so here it goes.

• Adelle Thompson
• Alexis Metcalf
• Ally Gertsch
• Amanda Newman
• Andy Munoz
• Anna Metcalf
• Annie Leibovitz
• Anthony Shewmake
• Ashley
• Barbara Etchel
• Barbara Venema
• Bella Bravo
• Betty Shiflett
• Bill Judy
• Brent Roberts
• Brian Mills
• Bryan Lee
• Camille Sparks
• Carlee Shiflett
• Caryl Blanchard
• Casey McPhee
• Cassie Merkley
• Chad Green
• Chase Myrick
• Cindy Metcalf
• David Wickens
• Dean Metcalf
• DeWayne Lyman
• Diane Munk
• Dona Brown
• Elbert Brown
• Elliot Wilson
• Felicia Fuller
• Gwen Kenis
• Heather Barney
• Indra Gines
• Jake Gamangasso
• James Hutichson
• Jen Blanchard
• Jenna Dilworth
• Jessica Oliphant
• Jillian Dahlen
• Jordan Ford
• Josiel Lopez
• Judy Olphant
• Julia Cannon
• Juliet Dowdle
• Kim Castro
• Kimber Mills
• Kory Shilling
• Kristine Dawson
• Lana Beck
• Linda Hutchison
• Lindsey Weber
• Lionel Williams
• Lusiano Pasillas
• Makeda Trujillo
• Mallori Metcalf
• Mandy Williams
• Marcia Metcalf
• Max Crebs
• Mayralilia Vaca
• Megan Loveless
• Michael Fitzgerald
• Michael Gallegos
• Michael Sanders
• Michelle Armstrong
• Michelle Player
• Morgan Oviatt
• Mrs. Ketteor
• Ms. Murdock
• Natali Baker
• Natalie Knudsen
• Nate Bullock
• Norma Metcalf
• Pat Hayes
• Rachel De La Cruz
• Richard Metcalf
• Robert Weeks
• Robin Rowley
• Rose
• Ruth Robertson
• Sam Smith
• Samantha Rodarte
• Samuel Chillin
• Samuel Riaz
• Sandy Beck
• Sarah Williams
• Scott Adam
• Scott Porter
• Shaylynn Davis
• Shirley Greene
• Stefany Seitz
• Summer Andrews
• Susan Gertsch
• Sydney Seitz
• Teisa Bullock
• Tom Hayes
• Veronica Geddes
• Zues

So this list may have people on it that may shock some of you, believe me they shocked me as well. But everyone deserves a spot due to how much the have changed or kept me the same. i am extremely grateful for each experience that i have had with these individuals.
i am also going to allow for those of you who wish to know why you are on the list the freedom to ask away.
megarina18@gmail.com

ps. i was in a car accident today. go team megan.
might blog about it later.
might not.
super embarrassed.

time of thanks

how cliche am i? 

very!

i'm going to do the same thing

that everyone with a blog has been doing

and list the things and people i am thankful for. 

*the goofs at the gym*

*my bfff&e efy*

i love when we are both so 

exhausted but stay up half the night

chatting about our days.

*ally*

i can always count on her

for the support i somehow 

always need.

and

the advice i may not want to hear.

*my job*

as much as i complain about it

i am extremely grateful to have 

such a decent job.

*david*

as much as i hate him

i have to admit part of me (my pinky toe)

likes him.

*banjos*

*chocolate cake*

*heating blankets*

*books*

*blogs*

*my new friends*

*my new job*

*my brother*

there isn't another brother

that i would rather have. 

*mom and dad*

*socks*

*thermals*

*NPR - talk radio*

*the pilgrims and indians*

best idea for a holiday. ever!

*dona & elbert*

this list is getting long but

i am going to continue.

hope that it's too long for you david.

*the opportunities i have*

*that i can be independent*

*my health*

i am so thankful for so many things
in my life.
i have the good life.