Tuesday, May 25, 2010

where are you?

so lately i've just sucked at being human.
i've been a lazy worker, if that's even possible at my job.
i've been an absent friend.
i've been a pissy/unfriendly
i've been a lousy blogger.
so basically i just suck!

i still haven't figured out what the "root" to my problem is.
maybe it's the weather.
maybe it's that i suck at what i love.
maybe it's that i'm feeling a little lonely.
maybe it's that i dislike parts of my current situation.
or maybe i just have the attitude of a 5 year old.

i'm trying to be positive.
i'm trying to be the normal me.
i'm not like this,
and i don't like being like this.
hell, i don't understand why if feel like this.
it's really frustrating and confusing.

i guess i'm telling you, dear internet,
in hopes that by finally releasing some
of my frustrations and admitting that i'm really upset.
i can just go back to being me.
i miss me.

any advice is welcome...

3 comments:

  1. exercise! punching bags! haha those always work for me...

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  2. My #1 piece of advice: Cut yourself some slack. Always, always cut yourself some slack.

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  3. Shitty thing is I've been feeling the saaaaaame way... Don't know what it is either... Or maybe I do but I'm too scared to make changes, confront, or fix things in my life... Sucks... I'm here for ya if you need someone. That's another thing I feel that you do. I feel like I've been an absent friend.. I don't want to be that anymore. We may be going camping this weekend if you'd like to join? Great photo opps?

    Here's something that might make you smile.. The word verification to this comment is having me spell unpliped... what the hell is that?!

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